Today has been one of those hard days. It is has been one of those days that I felt like the world was against me, do I want to talk about it and cry? No! I want to trust my God. I have done enough crying for the world to see.
You know my whole life my mom has taught me that when someone is sick or is dealing with something she prays for God to reveal what it is that it is. Like if the person is sick and they cannot figure out what it is, that that dis-ease needs to be given a name, so that then you know where to aim your prayers. My pastor taught that when an Enemy shoots his arrow at you, he has just given away his position, where he stands, because you saw where they shot from, well im here to tell you right now that I know where the Enemy is shooting at my life, and do I like it, No, it is not fun, but then again, when is getting shot at fun? It is painful, I have been wounded, but I am not about to lay it all down and run, no I’m a warrior, I’m here to fight.
You know today I was trying to get myself out of this sad/depressed/stressed state that I have been in for the past few days, so I decided to be goofy Hannah and learn how to play a Miley Cyrus song that has been stuck in my head for the last few days, when I look at you. so I learn this song and I begin to serenade Ariana (she wasn’t a fan of it either muwahahaha) and it was like through this song God brought me some kind of revelation. Have you ever read the lyrics? Well if not here they are
Everybody needs inspiration
Everybody needs a song
Beautiful melody, when the nights so long
Cause there is no guarantee
That this life is easy (Yeah)
[Chorus]
When my world is falling apart,
when there is no light to break up the dark
That's when I (I) look at you
When the waves are flooding the shore and I
can't find my way home anymore
That's when I (I) look at you
When I look at you
I see forgiveness, I see the truth
You love me for who I am like the stars
hold the moon
Right there where they belong and I know
I'm not alone (Yeah)
Dude do you realize how amazing that is? I didn’t. let me break it down for you. the first line, everybody needs inspiration, HELLO My Jesus laid his life down for me, he was beaten for ME, he heals the sick, he loves the poor, He is AMAZING!!! What other kind of inspiration do I need? Second line everybody needs a song, ok, so as a musician, a song to me is where my inspiration, where my trials, where my struggles are places…but in the end, the song is about where I stand, everybody needs a song, everybody has a place where they stand, maybe it is on the sand, maybe it is on the rock…Psalms 104:33 I will sing to the Lord as long as I live, I will sing praise to MY God while I have my being there it is, there is MY song, there is where I stand, that is the song that I NEED for my life. That also goes with the third line of the song, Psalms 104:33 again, is my beautiful melody, He is my everything, and when I feel like the night will never turn into the morning, he is my song, he is where I stand, He is my rock! Line four and five are really self explanatory. Life isn’t easy and there is no guarantee that it will be, the bible it says in Matthew 10:34 Do not think that I came to bring peace on earth. I did not come to bring peace, but a sword, yeah check it out, Jesus is training us to FIGHT, there will be division, there will be things, but in Him there is salvation.
Before we even touch the chorus, lets talk about the second verse. The first line is pretty much going with what I just said, things wont always be easy and God has called us to fight, but it also says in Matthew 10:38-39 and he who does not take his cross and follow after Me is not worthy of Me. He who finds his life will lose it and he who loses his life for MY sake will find it there you have it if you are seeking forgiveness and truth and the one guarantee that will always forgive and will always be truthful is God, and if you are willing to lay your life down for HIS sake you will gain everything he has for you. The next thing is You love me for who I am like the stars hold the moon. Pretty much my take on this is that God Loves Me!!! And He has me safe in His care, He has made me to be who I am, and where he has called me, He will hold me and keep me perfectly just like the stars and the moon something that is set and placed so accurately that He has my life, placed and formed with such perfection, now that is love!!! And with all of that Love, I know that I’m not alone.
Now for the Chorus, When my world is falling apart when there’s no light to break up the dark. You know daily in the world people are killed, people are injured, finances are low, Satan is always attacking, and worlds are always falling to pieces, sometimes you are sitting in a dry season staring at the ceiling and shouting, and you see no light, the night is getting longer and longer and darker and darker and there is no light to break any of this you are just in pitch black desert. It is HELL but you know what…Matthew 5:3-10 blessed are the poor in spirit for theirs is the kingdom of heaven blessed are those who mourn, for they shall be comforted, blessed are the meek, for they shall inherit the earth. Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they shall be filled. Blessed are the merciful, for they shall obtain mercy. Blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God. Blessed are the peacemakers, for they shall be called Sons of God. Blessed are those who are persecuted for righteousness sake, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven., that’s when I, look at you. wow…wait it gets better. When the waves are flooding the shore and I cant find my way home anymore Matthew 8:24-27 and suddenly a great tempest arose on the sea so that the boat was covered, but He was asleep Then his disciples came to Him and awoke Him saying, Lord save us! We are perishing. But he said to them why are you fearful O You of little faith? Then he arose and rebuked the winds and the sea and there was a great calm. So the men marveled saying who can this be that even the winds and the sea obey him. That’s when I look at you. You know sometimes I feel like my ship is going to wreck and I cant see anything ahead of me, but then I remember that the winds and seas obey my God, no matter the size of my problem I have a God who is bigger. I have a God who is big enough to take on my storms and they will bow to Him!!!
So Here I am despite this struggle that I am in right now, despite the tears that I have cried, I am standing on the rock and I am pulling out my sword, I am going to fight for my kingdom, im going to fight for the victory, its close by. Satan has revealed His standpoint, so me and my God are about to counterattack! Satan you better watch it because you are about to die.