First Homesick Day

So i have officially decided that Sundays are going to be my homesick day. I don't like the idea of going to another church and having to be around new people and not be able to hug the people I know, I feel as if when I go somewhere like that somewhere that was once my place, my element, my home, is now a stranger...Its like having a best friend for years and being separated and having to reacquaint myself with that person...this is not to say that once i reacquaint myself with this friend that I will not be comfortable once again, but it is like a new chapter, something that I have to get used to.

I feel like this feeling of homesickness is Gods way of telling me to run to Him. I feel like He moved me so far so that I have no one else to run to but Him, and that is fantastic, but I would just like to mention that the separation process is not my favorite thing that I am going through.

As of right now, it doesnt matter what church I go to, its not my church...its not Judah...oh I miss Judah...It doesnt matter how big of a name the pastor is, its not my pastor. It doesnt matter how many amazing people step into my life and become my friends, they are not my best friends, they are not my family. Yes I realize this is all part of the process, this is all a part of separating myself from the things that I cling to and clinging to God and trusting Him to lead me through, but it doesnt mean I like it.

I am excited for the day when I can say that I am comfortable, but I am not there yet. But on the plus side, God has blessed me with AMAZING friends here, and great roommates, and amazing teachers and mentors. I am excited to see what these people can do to input into the training that I have had given to me from those ahead of me.

So for all of you who are reading this, I would like to tell you all that I miss you, I really truly miss everything about you guys, I miss your smiles, I miss your laughs, I miss your love, I miss your faces!!!! I am so excited to hug you all again and talk to you. im just sayin

i would mainly like to end this with saying that God is great, and no matter how i may currently feel, i know that my God is bigger and my God is greater than anything else in the world and that he is going to do great things and teach me huge things here. I would like to praise God for the friends that he has already given me and the things that he is teaching me already in this school.